49 Months: Jul 8, 2018

By July 8, 2018 July 19th, 2019 Journey

“We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.”

— KENJI MIYAZAWA

There has been no measurable period of time in the last 49 months in which I have not felt the indescribable pain of losing my child. At times it is all I feel. Yet the pain is often layered with other feelings that I thought would be lost to me forever –  joy, happiness, contentment. Do not think that I am fine. I will never again be fine. But rest assured, I will embrace my pain and never for a minute give up on this journey, no matter where it leads, until I too find what exists somewhere beyond the beautiful sky.

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  • Jan Luton says:

    We’re in Myrtle Beach and today while sitting parked I saw beautiful
    dragonfly. My thoughts immediately went to you. Hope you feel my sadness for you.