“We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.”
— KENJI MIYAZAWA
There has been no measurable period of time in the last 49 months in which I have not felt the indescribable pain of losing my child. At times it is all I feel. Yet the pain is often layered with other feelings that I thought would be lost to me forever – joy, happiness, contentment. Do not think that I am fine. I will never again be fine. But rest assured, I will embrace my pain and never for a minute give up on this journey, no matter where it leads, until I too find what exists somewhere beyond the beautiful sky.