“A symphony must be like the world. It must contain everything.”
— GUSTAV MAHLER
After 66 months I’d like to be able to tell you what I know you want to hear – that the pain goes away. It doesn’t. I’d like to be able to tell you that it lessens. It doesn’t. I’d like to be able to tell you that it gets easier. It doesn’t. But the other thing I want to tell you is that I don’t want it to. She meant that much. Not a single day has passed that I don’t think of her. She is like a symphony that plays in my soul and all I have to do is stop and quiet my mind and I hear her. After 2009 days what I’d like to tell you is that I love her that much, and although you may not want to hear how much that hurts, I want you to know that it is ok. And if I seem like I’m somewhere else I might just be listening to my symphony.